Pregnancy Pictures and Control....

33 weeks Pregnant, right after professional shots

Todd and I took pregnancy pictures on Sunday. I have to say, the pictures in itself turned out really great, and Todd was happy with the outcome, but I guess I have a certain self image of myself and the person I saw in the pictures just didn't look like me. I don't know why I am just so disappointed with the way I look, I KNOW I am pregnant, and it is supposed to be beautiful and I just don't see it. Todd asked me today how many people do I need to reinforce how beautiful I look? I told him just one.... ME!!!! I don't see it, so it really doesn't matter how many people say I look nice and that I am glowing (as much as I do appreciate to hear it, thanks all) I just don't see it, so I won't be satisfied. Maybe sometime after Taelyn is here I can look back and say I did look pretty pregnant, but now, I just see a fat girl, and that is NOT me. I ask myself do all pregnant women go through this and think this about themselves?

Anyway enough about that, I am ordering the pictures that Todd really likes because I honestly didn't like any.

So I have decided what day I want Taelyn to come. I am nearly 4 weeks past the "Goal" date of 30 weeks and I am just getting so big and tired and frustrated and I am COMPLETELY over my Island, I expected to be off of it by now. Taelyn is getting her eviction notice next week and she IS going to arrive on MARCH 10th. How did I come up with that date you ask? Well, it is simple.... I was born on December 10th, so I would love for her to come on the 10th, Todd was born on June 20th, so 3-10-2010 just fits us all, then it is 5 days before our 2 year anniversary, which just so happens to be right smack in the middle of mine and Todd's birthdays. Also the number 10 signifies completion, just how Taelyn is going to complete us. I just love that date and I am willing this date to be her due date. God has been granting my requests thus far, so I pray that this date will work for his time too ^_^

I know she is not even here yet and I am already trying to control when she comes into this world. I just can't help it and I say that God made me this way... that is my story and I'm sticking to it.

Tony Maroni

Last night My Tony Maroni Boy had a scary seizure. He has been battling with a horrible ear infection since April of 09.... That is a super LONG time to have an ear infection. We have taken him to the Vet 3 times in the course of nearly a year. We have gotten 3 different diagnosis' and have gotten different meds every time. I have been extremely frustrated with the Vets and every time my boy would shake his head to get some sort of relief I would get more angry. Not at him, but at Tyson for licking the medicine from his ears, the incompetent Doctors he has seen, Todd and myself for not being able to keep up with the different medicine he was given.

Last night was a huge wake up call, I was so scared and emotional. He shook himself into a seizure. He was bleeding from the nose and was crying, but not moving. We took him to a different Vet today and $340 later, we have 4 different medicines and a very grumpy Tony. I pray that this time it works because I can't be without my Tony Maroni, neither can my poor Tyson.

My favorite picture of Tyson and Tony in Arizona.

Valentine's Day

This morning when I woke up, Todd asked if I wanted to go on a "Field Trip." So I looked at him and said "DUH!!!! Of course I wanna go on a field trip!!!! Where are we going?" So he decided that we would spend the day with Russell and Gigi and the kids. It was really fun and relaxing. It was such a beautiful day. The sun was shining and we were with our loving family and it was just perfect. Being around the kids makes me so happy, they say the funniest and sweetest things. Maya and Leah are always touching and kissing my stomach and telling me how much they love their baby cousin. We all sat outside (I was laying down) just enjoying each other and talking. It was really very nice. I couldn't have asked for a better outing! The kids played softball and rode their bikes. I didn't get any pictures of this because I left my camera inside, but I did get some pics of the kids playing on Uncle.... they really just use his as a jungle gym. It is cute. It was really nice for me to actually wear something nice instead of my usual sweat pants and t-shirt. When we left Russell and Gigi's house Todd and I had a wonderful dinner at Romano's and ended our beautiful day with Ohana's. PERFECT DAY!!!! I was so happy.








Oh, I broke our no gift rule and got Todd some golf shirts and I made him a card. It was really nice to see him happy, it has been a long time. It actually felt like before I was pregnant, it was very nice to feel normal again.

Pictures of the Nursery

Look at my Tyson and Tony boy, they were just hanging out in Taelyn's room while I took picutres.

I still need to hang some pictures...


All of these drawers are FULL!!!


We have the changing pad on here now, these drawers are full of diapers and wipes and lots of clothes.

Love these colors together!

Broken....

So I have been completely losing my mind lately. I have heard of women forgetting things when they are pregnant, but I think I am truly a special case. I don't remember ANYTHING!!! I can't even find my phone when it is right next to me. I feel like I need to have things done, so I tell Todd to do them and they have already been done. He says, "Honey, why do you keep repeating yourself?" All the while I'm thinking it the 1st time it is being said. When actually I have said it maybe 4 times!

I really don't know how much more I can take of this. I had a rough couple of days. I have so many things that are bothering me at the moment that I just didn't even want to go online or even talk to anyone. My eye sight is horrible and getting worse and worse by the day. That is why I am trying to limit my computer time. My back is in PAIN!!! I didn't know that I could be achy in most of the places I ache. My legs are hurting. I have woken up with charlie horses for the past 3 days. Todd hates it because I wake him up to massage it out. Then for the rest of the day my legs are so tight that I can't even move, and when I do get up to go to the bathroom, when I initially stand, I have to brace myself so I don't fall back down. I have NEVER in my life felt so useless. I feel like as my baby is growing and getting stronger, I am getting weaker. I feel like I am not myself. I am trying to stay strong and uplifted, but uggghhh.... I don't know how much more I can take. I'm coming very close to my breaking point.

Pics from the Shower

Here are some random shots from the shower the 1st one is all of the gifts that we were blessed with, the 2nd one is of me and Todd with the hat made by Tiffani and Carmel out of all of the gifts. Next, is right before we cut the cake. Tess and me and the last one is my cake! For some reason I couldn't download earlier.

Accomplishments of the week!

So I have had a VERY full weekend.... with all that happened this weekend, I am surprised that Baby Taelyn is not here yet... thankful, but surprised.
Lets start with Friday: We had a Doctor appointment and from my last blog, we all know how that went. When we got home my mom and Richard were here cleaning the house to get it ready for the shower. We all tackled the list of things that needed to be done. It took all day. Kellina came over to decorate and did a great job! Todd's dad and Step mom Pat came into town and hung with us for a while. Then my niece Maila came from the Philippines for the 1st time and is gonna stay with me and Todd to help out while I am on bed rest. She speaks and understands very little English so I have to play interpreter for Todd. It should be really helpful to him so he doesn't have to do so much. Very good productive Friday!


Saturday was our baby shower.... WHAT A DAY!!! It was so amazing! Completely overwhelming and just wonderful all around. I really couldn't have asked for more. We were truly showered with gifts and friends. It was hard for me since I couldn't really leave my Island, but I did the best I could which was good considering how I am. I was proud of myself. Highlights: 1. Todd blessed the food before we ate, that completely made my mom's day, but it really meant a lot to me since I really don't ever hear or see him pray. 2. The Cake.... can we all say YUM!!!! It was Michelle's and they never seem to disappoint. Same cake we had at our wedding. Yummy! 3. Seeing old friends. I really was so happy to see some friends who I haven't seen in forever. That really meant so much to me that they took the time and effort to come and see me. 4. LaQualia, she was an AMAZING host of the games. She took charge and got everything done, she is the loudest person I know and she really kept things moving. 5. The Games, the guys were involved and really got everyone's competitive sides going! My brother, Jessica, Marisa, and Paul, just were after each other to get the clothespins! The way they were acting, you would have thought they were made of GOLD~ The baby bottle game was hilarious!!! Grown men and woman drinking out of a baby bottle to win a prize, Classic! 6. The gifts were awesome and plentiful... to think I was worried I wasn't going to have enough stuff for Taelyn. We now have more than enough baby stuff and are as prepared as we can be.

I am just so happy!!!