Trent Mason

I have been wanting to blog for weeks now, but because of issues I'd like to blog about... I have decided to take a break from blogging, (if that makes any sense at all.)

This morning I woke up and was inspired to write something that had nothing to do with the drama that I have named "Blogger Gate." It has to do with me and my journey. I have three kids, I only have two that are living. I have written a many times about Trent Mason I feel him, I love him and I really and truly miss him. I am sad that I didn't get the chance to know him. I am sad that, to this day, my husband and I can't really talk about him. He has defined me as a mother. I treat Taelyn and Trent like glass because I know at any moment they can be taken from me and my heart can be shattered again. I am a strict mother because I want my kids to be good, obedient, mindful, thoughtful and most of all FAITHFUL. I step out of my comfort level more than I am comfortable with because I want to give them experiences and not limit them because of my hangups.

I think about Trent Mason all the time. Today, if God spared his life, he would have been four. I could have had a four year old. That thought is hard to wrap my head around. Taelyn would have been a little sister and known what it would have been like to be a middle child. This morning, I woke up thinking about him and what our lives could have been like, all of the "ifs." I checked my email and this is what I saw:

Really it was the strangest thing because I don't usually get emails like this, they go straight to junk mail, and when I do get mail like this, I don't even open it, I just hit delete. Today, I don't know why, but I opened it and as soon as I read the first line and completely fell apart. How ironic is that?

My mom tells me all the time that Trent Mason gave his live to save mine and my future. Call it Filipino superstition. Nothing I believe in, but since we lost him, I have been the healthiest I have ever been, I no longer have the medical issues I had before. I was able to have Taelyn AND Trent Michael, with very little health problems. I am just so thankful and blessed at the way my life has turned out. I don't know if I owe to it my little guy, but I do know I owe it to God. I remember when I was younger, I would pray for the life I have now. I do have struggles and everyday issues, but the big picture is EVERYTHING I have ever prayed for and ALL that I have always wanted. Even when I didn't know it, this is the life I was meant to have and I am living it the best I know how and I see my blessings and I am appreciative for them all. I needed that reminder this morning. It gave me some perspective. Because of that, I say, "Thank You, Lord!"

Pictures and My Birthday

Random pictures from the last few days
Trent in his Police Car

I walked into the bathroom and he had my bra over his face... I guess he smelled my breast milk

This guy loves to water the plants... His shirt is so fitting

At lunch with friends

I just love these little cuties, we had a "Pajama Party"

Hide and Seek, I guess they were both it

Slow Down

Market Night

Boys in their cars

These girls love to go FAST!

Taelyn and Kailey

Trent was being too quiet, and this is why. My little book worm

Family time at the Sanders' house

Taelyn sleeping with her purse (sorry for the blurriness, it was dark in her room)

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My birthday is December 10th, but since it fell on a Monday this year, we celebrated on the Friday before. I don't remember where I heard about this Mystery Detective Dinner Theater from, but I Googled it and got the information and told a few of my friends and we went. It was so much fun. It is set up kind of like Clue. You are watching a play and then there was a murder and another and then another. The key was to figure out who the killer is and what is the motive. I am usually really great at figuring these things out, but I could hardly pay attention. It was so MUCH FUN!!

My Honey Do and Me

Sweet Tekura, my sorority sister, with my Brother and SIL in the background

Rafaelle and Paul

Calvin, my Brotha from anotha Mutha

My girl Qualia

Me, Tekura and Brigette

James and Amber

My girl Shanoan came all the way from LA to hang with us

The Cast

I am so blessed to see 32 years. I have great friends, an amazing family, the best husband anyone could ask for and two of the sweetest little babies God could ever bless me with . I am overwhelmed with happiness and gratitude. I LOVE MY LIFE!

Tess and Eddie Are A Mess

My mom and Eddie are probably the strangest people I know. They bask in the glory of being old and take full advantage of it. They are silly, oblivious and just plain LOST. I really don't know how these two survive in the real world. They don't have internet (gasp!) Their phones are ancient. My mom doesn't even have numbers stored in her phone because she doesn't know how. She has everyone's numbers memorized, who does that? It's actually quite impressive. I don't even know my own number.

I went to my mom's house sometime in June and she was working out. I asked her what she was doing and she said, "I'm doing the Insanity." So I said, "Your bought the DVD's? You know I have them?" She looked at me confused and said, "No, I just watch it on TV, it comes on on the weekends." Now it was time for me to be confused. I told her that there is no way that she watches it on TV, you have to pay for it, I then put it together that she was just watching the infomercial and I said, "Mom, that is not Insanity, that is the infomercial selling Insanity!" Then she said, "Oh, is that what that is?" OBLIVIOUS! I took this picture of her work out:

See what I mean, then the other day, I went over to their house for lunch and Todd noticed that Eddie was wearing a belt with SWEATS!!! Who does that? Really? After about 5 minutes of laughter from all parties, I took a picture to show him how silly he looked and his response was, "I ain't tryin to impress nobody." I can't wait to get old, for that reason alone. Old people say and do whatever and seem to get away with it. Here is his lovely ensemble:

Then here is the kicker Everyone is really into this whole "Gangnam Style" phenomena, so while trying to entertain the grandchildren, this is what they look like. They kill me, but they are fun, they love each other and they certainly keep each other young and happy.
Gangnum Grandparents