My History... Part 2

After yesterday's blog post, I was feeling sad. We were so optimistic with that pregnancy because we made it so far. So after that letter was sent out, the results of the ultrasound was negative, the lumps were nothing to worry about and eventually went away on their own, the asthma is still an issue, but much better since I am no longer working in the casino. The low blood pressure is manageable. That letter was sent November 22, 2008 and this followup letter was sent on January 2, 2009, 7 days after I delivered Trent.

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January 2, 2009

Hello Everyone,

So, as some of you know, Todd and I lost our baby boy on Christmas Day... Or at least that is when we think he died... I went in to urgent care on Christmas afternoon because I hurt my back and I hadn't felt the baby move in a few hours. They were unable to locate his fetal heart rate. They sent us home saying that it was probably nothing and if we didn't feel the baby through the night, to come back in the morning. So after a sleepless night, Todd and I went back 1st thing in the morning. Again, they did not find his heartbeat, so they sent us to Redlands Community and ordered and emergency ultrasound. That determined that he was no longer alive.

From there, the doctor told us that because I was so far along in my pregnancy (22 weeks, 5 months and 2 weeks) they had to induce labor and I had to deliver him. They admitted me and gave me the pills to induce and labor started. After about 10 hours of labor, at 4:20 am December 27th, Trent was delivered. Immediately after I was rushed into surgery to have a D&C. The placenta was attached to some scar tissue from a previous surgery. When I woke up from my surgery, they brought Trent to my hospital room, and I really couldn't believe what I saw. He was a baby... He was perfect... He had long fingers and toes. He looked just like Todd. I wasn't expecting him to look like us, he had our features. Saying that it was hard is an understatement.

Todd and I are trying to get through this tough time. We have wonderful family and friends and they have been our back bone through this whole thing. We have decided that we are going to have Trent's body cremated and keep him with us in our home. Today we went to the mortuary to have our final viewing. It is somewhat of closure for us. Writing this email has been extremely hard for me, so I hope you all understand the delay, it is still very fresh and still very new to me. I just thought that you all should know. Thanks again for your love and support.

Love,
~TERESA and TODD

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Now all of you know that the next year I was pregnant with Taelyn and God delivered our little miracle on March 20, 2010. Taelyn is my testament of faith and to never give up hope!